This goes way back seven years ago in 2011 when I was first diagnosed with Stage 4 Lymphoma...
I was an athlete and health freak all my teenage years throughout my adult life and when cancer hit, I struggled the whole year through chemotherapy and radiation. I didn’t once think I would make it through.
I lost almost everything that for 20 years I had worked so hard to achieve -- job, friends, money, appearance. I was mentally wrecked; my life was completely upside down.
After the first year of treatment, my cancer was in remission but I was left with a weak body and all kinds of other problems like hypothyroid issues, major anxiety and hair loss. I had gained over 30 pounds from high doses of steroid due to treatment, and top it all off, I could not walk two blocks without stopping to catch my breath.
That's when DEPRESSION kicked in, I didn’t get out of bed for six months. At some point, I heard a voice calling my name -- HEY WAKE UP! YOU STILL EXIST! I knew I had to face the battle of GETTING BACK ON MY FEET.
For almost two years I tried getting back to my workout routines (spinning, running) but I physically couldn’t do anything.
In 2014 when I moved to Pasadena, I found Bikram South Pasadena nearby. I had done some research on Bikram Yoga. At first I thought THIS IS INSANE! 105 degree for 90 mins trying hang on to some yoga poses? HELL NO!
But I signed up anyway, desperate to lose weight and detox all the poison in my body from the chemotherapy.
And here I am going on my fourth year of my yoga practice, doing it for three main reasons:
• 90 minutes of meditation (for my mental state)
• 90 minutes of sweating bullets (detoxing)
• 90 minutes of knowing I am giving 100% of me back to ME.
My practice has taught me the power of my mind. We are so strong and can overcome hardship if we are DETERMINED and LOVE this body and mind we have been given.
I might never run a 1Ok again but I know I could hold onto my 26 poses for 90 mins.
And that is enough of a blessing for me.
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